Hey i just want to tell smthng abt d guy of my life....... i don knw wat kind of relationship m havng wid him means m not in love wid dis guy but i cant even want to imagine my future life without him.... its not dat i cant live without dis guy but i dont want to..... yeah he is not the best but he is one of the best ......He is not my choice but he is the only choice i have.....
we met onlyn.he was in relationship wid a girl n me too wid sm1 else whom i truly loved...:) but he fall for me i don knw y but i alwys think dat y i said a line "awww u r in relationship , dil tod dia tumne mera" n he was ready to do anything to b wid me...he broke up wid his girl who truly loved him n never said anything wrong abt him or me n left.... i tried to patch up dos guys but useless...he knew abt my boyfriend n our fyt.... n start forcing me to give him a chance.hw can i give him a chance wn m already in a relationship n completely n madly in love my bf. lately i realized its my mistake i m responsible for his breakup i should b wid him. dn i said yes to him.things were good , we were fyn . my bf was angry y m playng awl dis but in real i wasnt playng i just wanted to make everything ok, i just wanted everyone to b happy.
My bf was done wid me n my relationship n accept to leave d relation n ready to b my fren but i wasnt happy n i never said anything to him coz i don wan to mess everything for d guy wat i was tryng to make up for him.
We talk late nyts ,i shared almost my full childhood memories n everything about me wat i like n wat dont.He just alwys want to hear my voice :( neva talked much about himself or his life.i feel lyk its ok.....m here for his good but i had no idea wat was in his mind he was damn serious about me i felt like m total mess i cant tell him the truth dat i don love u i was just tryng to make u feel better coz of breakup n dos days his father was in hospital i just wanted to support him.Then i started keep distance from him n shared my feeling to my bf den he said u did it urself nw u r responsible for it , now pay for it.I thought let it be...:) now he needs me i must b wid him i will tell him everythng wen everythng b ok.
After few months wen we were comfortable he suddenly start takng dirty :( wich i dintnt like n cut d call but he called again again n finally i picked n directly said i don wan talk dirty he said fine n aftre dat everyday was lyk old days. But after some day he again started dose talk i was listening to him n did everythng wat he told me to but i wasnt happy at awl n said him not to do it again for my sake.I don knw i cant control him n wenever i said lets sleep he start dat topic...:( after dat i stop sayng him anything n he keep doing dos talks.N den i start fytng wid him for unknown reason so dat he vl leave me n realize m not d one but he never did.
In october we decided to meet. We first met on 11 oct.Dat day was just fyn coz i wasnt into him coz i never liked him but i spend whole day wid him.Den he left.Other day he came back we were in park he said lets not meet here like dis dere r police all around we should have meet at ur place i said ok n tell him i will not do anythng lyk we done on phn or wat he said ok.Then on our 3rd meet we went at my place everythng was good untill he closed d door.........................:( he was badly wanted to hav sex wid me but i refused to do but he keep insisting n begging me to b wid him.I wasnt ready for sex coz i love sm1 else but said nthng to him n neva allowed him to do anythng but sadly he did wat he wanted...................................... n m not virgin anymore dat day was worst day of my life....i cried d hell out .................................................dats y i don respect dat guy n don love him.... n i think i vl never b
Den we keep meeting almost every month.I always feel good dat he came here for me after travelling 12 hrs n den wait so long to just meet me but feel sad wen starts for sex wenever we met we did hav sex n after every sex i cried but he never cared for my feeling never .He always want his side of love how can i give him his side of love i don feel.I do love him for his qualities, for d way he cares for me n der r many moment i fall for dis guy but just coz of sex i hate him like helllllllllllllllllll......................... n never want to express my feeling.............
He got placed n i was happy for him n completed his diploma n shifted from colg hostel to home.....:) dn i used u visit him at his home town we spend good tym together.
Den he moved Hydrabad :( for job i felt very bad coz after dis he is gonna busy in his work but i was happy too coz he is settling his future life for us for his family.Den he transfered to chennai but lately he switched to mumbai.
In 2011 after his insisting i traveled round about 1650km to make him happy so dat he will not feel alone dere.We told many lies to my family for dis trip but all are not in vain. I enjoyd my full tym der i feel complete n happy wn m with him.One nyt we were drunk n i remember nothing about dat nyt :( but feel relax wen i wake up.I had great tym n don want to come back :( but i cant stay der coz i hav other life to live in my family.I wish i could stay der with him in his arms....................in 2012 i traveled again hehe n again had best days of my life .........
Now m serious for this guy.Bt i don want to tell him my feelings coz i don want him to ask me for love sex....:( i still hate having sex with him.His behavior get changed by passage of time now he starts hating me.Now he also has the second thoughts.
THATS MY LIFE...........................................I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT BUT M HAPPY HE IS STILL WID ME N I WONT LET HIM GO.......
